Little Birdie

If you’re wondering where I’ve been the last month or so, I started a new job on June 2nd. Check it out–I have a title and everything.

It’s been a big change, and change is hard. I am the type to give myself to whatever I’m involved in (after I accept the change, anyway). Seven years at my first job out of college is a sizable emotional investment.

I’ve been thinking about the things I learned from my first job. I certainly grew up quite a bit. I learned patience and compassion. I learned to get along with just about every type of personality. Oh, and I learned a fair amount of politically correct lingo. Things like, “At the end of the day, we are really focusing on synergizing our efforts in moving forward.” And, “We really need to look at this from the 30 thousand-foot level, and circle back to resolve the issues that have come up in the course of our progress.”

I made some dear friends that I love. I worked hard and excelled at what I did…for the most part I learned what I can and can’t do. Meeting planning? No brainer. Anything with the term “engineering” or “economic analysis” in it? Hell no. My left eye twitches whenever I hear the term “cost/benefit”.

I find myself missing it. That’s a surprise. I don’t miss the work itself so much as I miss the comfortable routine of knowing my place and everyone around me. I know soon enough I’ll get into the routine at my new place, but it’s hard to break in.

All in all though, it’s been a good change so far. It’ll be cool to see how God uses me here. The first four weeks have caused me to lean on Him a great deal, but now I can feel myself gaining confidence and pushing that dependence on God towards the background. I don’t want to do that. That is a dangerous thing, thinking I can do it alone, acting like God is just some kind of crutch. That’s totally bogus, man. Totally. The reality is, I’m desperate for God’s presence all the time. I crave it, whether I’m conscious of that or not. They say if you feel thirsty, you’re already dehydrated. Well, same goes for spiritual thirst. My prayer is that I’ll turn to God to slake it and not other things.

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